Miles Away

Oop! Lost track of time yesterday so bringing it today.

(kinda cool that 18th Blog Post lands on Sept. 18th)

First things first, I got my second parking ticket this week. Woohoo.

But guess what; odometer hit 158K on the nose, and my Cranberry continues to zip around Dallas in all it's... glory?

Seriously though, still upset about the ticket, but life hands things to us we don't always want.

(Speaking of, that Vikings/Packers game, really???)

Today while reading for class, I stumbled upon what I think is a great quote.

"Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it." ~ M. Scott Peck

Makes me think critically about myself -- being at an insecure point in life -- a few unexpected hurdles have presented themselves and I question almost everything.

What does it mean to value ourselves? What does value look like? How does that effect our time management (or life management)? It can be truly inspiring when you realize the significance of self-value!

Self-anything has a magnetic pull to selfishness, however, this doesn't have to be the case. In a culture centered around the concept of ME (I'll do it MYSELF and MY way) it's not difficult to see where the rubber meets the road. The imprints of previous choices from past generations, going all the way back to Adam and Eve, have caused this belief system.

This afternoon at lunch I noticed how many estranged faces existed in the cafeteria. People I should have reached out to but haven't (and if I had, it was most likely to talk about my successes and beliefs). I've swung so far in self-value I have turned into a walking and talking monster. No one wants to hang around someone who's self-absorbed, and my insecurities led me here and the outcome is friendlessness, which falls back into the cycle of insecurity.

Don't do it! Please!

I'm opening up a little bit more today so that you, the reader, can hear the emphasis in my voice. Self-care is great, but whatever happens do not let the pendulum swing to far. Love yourself for who you are, but in no circumstance should that love consume your relationship with others.

I know many of you don't struggle with pride, and that's great! Everyone is on the same road, just at different points of development. That being said, don't belittle others for where they are at. In the act of looking down on someone is another face of pride.

Not sure how we got here. Started talking about parking tickets and then spilled one of my deepest/darkest insecurities for the internet to see.

LOL

I recently tried putting others first in conversation. Wow, what a transformation.

See you back here in 6 days -- Monday schedule will return!